STARING OF STORS
Beautiful, automatic, beautifully
automatic, & reveling, solo in the beauties of his variegated
automaticities, Qert the Botic went from stor to stor, scanninggninnacs
eachhcae oneeno. His instruments spread amazingly like oriental
fans & gathered & gauged & measured, & compared, &
collated, & stored & redacted&enspressed & ceptulated
& sussed, & intrapolated the faces, perstornalities &
stormanamolies, MMSI parameters, SQs, & genetic trees of each
sun. Or sunlike thing.
Studying his script, Qert would Qert
would then turn to the next stor, which like a small child before a
photograph would perk up just then & smile‑‑beamish awkwardly, as
Qert would put it (but was forced to store it, as they had given him
thoughts, even words existing in glorious golden ik=mage files, but no
means for speaking them.
There was no one to speak to in the
universe, in any case. Qert deliberately suprapressed, by the way, a
rather ingenious & complex modality whereby he might write words
down. He had figured this himself. I think Qert was a
genius, though there are those assholes who differ with me on this or
that as the case may asshole be
whereupon Qert would flash the thing,
& fold up his information & tash it in his spack & turn to
the next stor, which would shift oafishly in its lil spaceseat &
run its little finger under the collar it had donned for the
occasion‑‑though Qert didn't care...what did it matter to Qert, huh,
what though he (Qert) loved the little bastards that were bigger by him
than far. Huh?‑‑& sweat, sort‑of, whereupon SNAP! would quip,
& another stor captured in that pack of holik=mages.
On Qert went, turning to stors,
reading an mimeasurin, workin hard anda havin funs, & storing a
whale off a lotta bon mots in this cute Leatherette Pak™ of his
d‑noted IK=MAGE PHIALS. He But turned, & there were ButStors,
walls of 'em smiling obsequiously at that. They each stors they
each had a specifical special charactheuristic smile, which was a part
of Qert's perceptivacs that did not fit into the ik=mage phile but
which did (& this is important) fit into words. He enjoyed
describing the stors in personal & generally contemptuous
terms. He liked it. He may have had a touch of botic
bile‑‑I'm not disputing that. But is this not too a
characteris‑tic of genius, not what haat?
So there was getting to be a lot of
dope on these stors stuck in Qert's ik=mage file zaway.
Expect might-you as-now, this staring
of stors involved a lot of travel, & this travel involved
unfathomable fathombs of time, or what passed as time through the time
between the stors, which was the intraverx. Qert's beautiful
selfregardingly beautiful mind was so fashioned (as you & my
mind(s)s are so‑fashioned, only so differently) as to cut so‑out
between sostors, so to Qert he was not lying dormant dormant dormant
for millennia, but was constantly active. He even had a place for
peace, but he didn't know that yet.
Yes the sense he had of his various
components wearing out, discoloring, shifting tensile spengths &
viscosities in a flash, was this time round part of Qert's roundsense
of the intraverx. It was just that the xrevrtna went like that,
as you stepped from stor to stor, throwing up your skin, looking at the
insides of these sundry stors, focusing their energy flows in timespan,
so that what you end up tucking in your handy little pack, slung from
your shoulder(so strangely different from the last time you popped the
crystallization of a stor inside)'s this exquisite, perfectly‑made,
endless I mean endless detailed model of the stor as it would exist
many billenia hench.
THE AFTERTHOUGHT OF LANTHORN
or
THE ETERNAL SHAPE OF BEAUTY PERPLEXT
From one of those futures he developed
a note. He received a message, but it felt like he developed
it. At first it felt queer, but good. Queer but good.
The note come in the digital fluorm of a skyroll, complex,
indecipherable. O but it felt legal, like a summons from long ago
still in its puffless envelope. Qert rose to the challenge
and‑‑stopped between stops‑‑focused the full pattern of endlets
billemnia onto the note. It caught right fire it did, whereupin
Qert leaned back, yes he did, & let me tell you, you might have
felt the heat from Qert's big grin. This botic was
confident! He was deluced; he was made for this sort of thing...
He fabricated the code‑‑meaning he
reworked the code endlessly, in an intraverxic snuff onno time, &
only but this once upin a time did the letters come right. They
went like this:
100.0101101001 V'BFOOTIY:EW SW'S, TIYE
DEUWBSM JUB/,
100.0101101010 B'BFO‑TIY:RW SWAS, TOYE
DRUWBS, JUBZ,
100.0101101011 BABF‑‑TOY:RE SEAS. TOUE
FREUBS, QUBZ.
100.0101101100 BANF‑‑YOY:RE DEAS. YOUE
FRIENS, QIBZ.
100.0101101101 BANG‑‑YOU:RE DEAS. YOUR
FRIENS, QINZ.
100.0101101111 BANG‑‑YOU'RE DEAD. YOUR
FRIEND, QINZ.
100.0101110000 NANH==UOIARE FESF/ YPUT
GTIEMD. QOMZ/
100.0101110001 NSMH==UPIAIR FRSF/ UPIT
GTORMF. WOMX/
and so on. This doesn't make any
sense.
But what's this string
#100.0101101111? For several hours Qert stand there, leaning over
his intracomm. His face had the eternal shape of Beauty Perplext,
which was the only thing the poets of the antique, early stors wrote
about wrote about wrote about & wrote. About his face had
this beauty as your dingy street has its beauty, briefly, when the
pales of summer rain keep sweeping & sweeping in repetitive capes
across, if as wishing the light fum the old lamp acrosshiff the windows
where ipswill worp magic in the morning. But the morning never
comes‑‑you know? Well, ol' Qert's suffused face was sfffused face
was sfffsst with this aforementioned beauty, also known as this beauty,
also known inside even in the tiny workings of the invisible guts of
the smallest unborn child‑‑the one who was beaten nothingness in to by
the force of perception you.
To speak plainly, the botic was
puzzled because he couldn't make the signal. I mean he couldn't
make it out, he couldn't suss it, scan it, get it to cohere. It
stayed a drizzworld liquold in his weepy eyes & dissoilute in his
reery tears & a fuzz in his fuff nophe. He couldn't gestalt
the patterns. It was as if there were no patterns to gestalt, you
know? Here he was hearing perfect instructions from what might be
the Perfect God, & all he was getting was that specifically mocking
static that was built up over several storic nullinia as a sort of
inside joke amongst the storic engineers, the storic engineers, who
apparently saw laughter in the smoke I mean heard laughter in the
static or felt those unseen babaies cry in the cosmic whisphs of that
isolated street we spun on that swung away in space.
"Little else & little other than
static, here," Qert tried to report‑‑but the very twust of his face,
that untoward beauty, see, cramb‑dupt the signal, so he was sure they
couldn't hear. (& who also were they, & what was
#100.0101101111 toom?) Again bent he down in the static, then
glanced up but briefly to grimace at the streetlamp over head which the
Uthor of Olbing had not thought to put there before, & Qert called
it (the lanthyrn) in his mind (the windwoo) the Afterthought Lanthorn
(the rain), & thought to himself that this would make a good title
("The Eternal Shape of Beauty Perplext") for this piece, if piece it
be, & then he looked down & made a sort of a gargoyle face, yes
a gargoyle face he made out of the face of beauty tishade, & this
gargoyle's face parenthesies (parenthesis mined!) mimed his
difficulties with the cheap little plastic control knob with which he
tried fruitlessly envein edly to TUNE IN THE GOD, the old gameshow, so
Qert looks disgustingly like The Idiot of the Fable Adjusting His Radio
To Hear The Voiceoveur Zufgod, eyebrows raised in hopeful inanity‑‑or
hopefulnanity‑‑tongue sticking out, when Uthrhor Et hadn't even given
him a tongue until now‑‑but there it is. Know this: Is.
& Know This: Too.
& This: Too Too.
Part of that ugly face mayavben the
reificiation of the static, which is a religious event if there other
was ome, such that Qert the Idiot has these spokkles o static
beatifically luminous round him like fine particles of a special
snow. The static's now falling in silver swoa round his ears,
whirling in meaningfully articulated patterns round & round his
stupid caulifloriberes, & he just can't make it out. Yes,
connections between levels alwrys bad.
"What do you make of it?"
"It look bad. We put him in
these scenes and‑‑"
"And he's still the young dolt.
Sad."
"Bad."
"He thinks he's talking to the very
top god?"
"Well of course not. He think he
not talking to the very top God."
"Ah."
"There is this very big difference."
"Mm."
"I mean‑‑have you ever thought you
were gnottalking to the very top God?"
"Never."
"Of course not!"
"I have never not thought I was
talking aught to the very top God."
"Yes well, the point is he has lost
the stor."
"But he doesn't remember‑‑he's not
admitting to it."
"Yas. Sad."
"Yas."
Pause. Reflex. Gauze.
"I did once think that I was talping
off the very tock of God." Pause. "Or was it taking oolgh
the veroy top of God?"
"That's vere diffrents, ver, butand by
the way, what did you just say about 'gauze'?"
"This was narration."
"Narration, aye. Then who be we?"
"We‑be static repartetion."
"Tou‑Touché!
EAT‑ONE‑EAT
or
THOUGHT‑PAST FLOWERS OF MY SELF
The one time a botic needs repairs is
when he thinks he's in disrepair. Qert Bottotic thought so.
"I felt woozy," he thought later thought, "and I felt a distinct
weakness in my perambulatory mechanisms {nice phrase, that}. I
was conscious of moving, & there was this pain in my chest. I
limped & hobbled & pulled my way through empty space, a
not‑nice phase that, & a difficulty in empty space. I was to
have difficulties in empty space, I understood, & here I was in
fact having actual difficulties in intra space. Nor did it fee
like intra space, I thought, as I sighed. Nor did I move in the
manner you move through intra space. No, I was definitely
walking, semiconscious & sick & sick though I was. I was
limping, below my cute little limping legs was a black surface like
velvet‑‑not vacuum of space but ordinary of floor, you see. I
must be still inside the stor, I say. I how ever had a feverever
& did could not assay.
"'Wow!' thought I later to
myself. 'I had a real fever. I had a real forehead with
real sweatpores pouring forth their sweatpoor wares ro wores. Big
lesions of it schlep tacross mineyes, burning mynize, & I was
shaking my head a lot to shake off the sweat & to clear it, &
also because when you see movies of cowboys or soldiers sweating they
always like shake off their sweat. It is actors shaking off
unactual sweat, but you always see it, in the movies, & it always
moves,and you always move into the movie at that point, so I figure it
must be some deep ik=magical point, some utterly deep ik=magical point
& not just the ticks of a thousand actors (think: The Tix of a000
Actors) imitating thothers indemselves (thick: Intimading Thyuthers
Emthomzelves!). O I shook sweat. So I mutofben an actor,
shaking off sweat with a million little sweaty me's inside & tossed
a side ndaridin down in those ol beamzoswet, right?
"'"Well, possibly," I past thought
myself. "But there was this fever station, I mean power station,
I mean beaver staytium, I mean roadside inn, I mean motel, I mean EAT,
I mean REPAIRS, it said, & I thought fever passed, 'Well, this was
the place to get fixed, & so I walked in. I walked right in,
I walked right into heaven‑‑known from the title as the first false
heaven or The Thirst False Heaven or REPAIRS or EAT or
EAT‑ONE‑EAT‑‑& I walked right into this goddam trap with my eye
zwide open. I tell you, I was sick. I am aware of what the
ultra‑unquoted narrator said up there‑‑about a botic never being sick
except etcet‑‑& I urge you to think on how a narrator ain't no
Uthor of Olbing, OK? So I wouldn't know. I was sick.
I mean to say I was sick.
"'"'"I was sick," thought‑past flowers
of myself, whereupon the carpet I was walking on turned white,
whereupon I went mad‑‑witch comeill tell you a botic snever due, others
if not Uthor stell you that's only what a botic salways zis, so you can
take it, sift it, sort it out your sordiself itut unthought."'"'"
THE CONCEPT OF MOVEMENT STARRING QERT
or
THE JOLLY WHITE DOCK OF THE K‑HEXATOLE
The first thing Qert noticed when he
first fell into this sfirst of the Seven False Heavens was that he was
aware that he was traveling! That was enough to frighten any
botic in this vast & botic‑ridden universe, but I remember tuning
in to this awakening creature & noting his strange sense of
wonder. Qert noted he was flying through space. He had
velocitometers, but they weren't jooked up to his conscious mind, since
only his servomechanisms acted while he moved, & slept, & so
Qert had to dig in to the old, soft, goldish ik=mage files &
describe to himself this new sensation, this new concept: the concept
of movement.
He was a very young & egotistical
botic, Qert, what though he'd existed for nunefallion xiers (wherefore
most of this time was spent unconscious & gathering O that rarest
dust, in mind), & he immediately & instinctively put himself at
the center of the Comcept o Vlocity, so it came out rather like one of
your dilmsklipts: ***The Concept of Movement*** skarring Qerk.
& he lookta roun din wonder, for he was indeed traveling, but not
through empty space‑‑which might have bored him just as much as the old
neurollow Tongue gov Cloir would be bored by the hollow‑molecule Spices
of Arr‑‑but rather through a field of diaphanous webs that he felt
against a big face he was projecting compulsively with all his
considerable sleep‑might sleepmight sleepmight sleepmight into the
illuminate/region space out hyarr.
***He was lost in a stor!***
Lookatim: swishing through cool web
after cool web, still having trouble umpucing this movement business,
this velocity game, the old travel modality, that inimitable speed
trip, your basic spip spinnalidee, but he was somewhere noting he was
in storic space (another new concept there, but one he'd writ of often
of, fo netfo fo, & as the stors had told him of, for your stors be
sorely frighted by your nexus‑entxus offo stoorroots spaceecaps) &
somewhere zelse noting toooot that he was slowing down, he was being
dragged down by these wonderful nets which felt less than a storflore
thicks, he was decelerating, & the thoughts behind the brightly
innoxent flace out there projected with such mighty‑might in splace
were splacewore splacewor hurting what's left of his highflying botic
head.
He was being brought in by something
(for repairs? was this home? no one had saw fit to givim
enaemory of home, so he could only guess from the ache you & I know
so deeply well that this was home. But it was not home.
That's another ache, & please understand our little guy that that
he couldn't under standthat K?)‑‑actually being haulked in &
dragged to a stop on his trip to the stors.
Cautiously, & with real fear this
time, Qert the Botic stuffed his handy STOR‑PAK© back in his sash
& zipped the sash & straightened his tunic & smoothed down
his jair‑‑even to the point where this illusory‑blue sort‑of
Superman‑hair looked, well, sort of tacky, know mussed you‑if, sort of
Franzy Goto Oilywood, sort of 80's dorkish mush‑u‑no, sort of slick n
sticky n all tacked down. He was so awot wiph nervushness that
the ether spangled up with presions of sweat, with presions o sweat,
with pressions‑a presionza sweat, yessir‑‑& tried to look cool
though he dint know how nor nor what nor was happening.
He was hauled in to a ship better left
described than magimbel (this the space‑dream part imaginal), laid to
rest on the Perfect Central Dot of a Perfect White Oval Dock, finest
beams atingle with high emotions focused right on him (so:), talked
down, synthecalmed, debebriefed, air brought autoin, & the most
minuscule figures you ever saw walking towards him.
Keep mind‑in poor Qert's used to
eyeballin' stors. Whole stors. Poor Qert's not used to
small stuff like creagatores‑‑which is what he was in fact "seeing" at
this time, smiling high as a dilly by this time time time, if you grant
that the concept "seeing" has any validioty for some one‑‑such as this
figure Qert here‑‑who donknow fully no what he's "seeing" "here."
He's uh pretty flipped out‑‑not only because of strangeness‑‑which
might not always flip yout, y'know‑‑bu because he was straining not to
remember stuff, like this stuff, which was however straining to enter
his mind YAAAAAAA!
A‑yes, for ensamplee doesn't have to
struggle with the concept of "walking," which might be expected to be
expected to be expected to be rather radical for him.
But no. To save dimensions of
the plot, we note that Qert's major difficulty observing the
creagatores walking across the perfectly smooth reflevitcelferective
& rather jolly white dock (The Jolly White Dock of the K‑Hexatole,
the storship we are in we are om) is his realization that he knows what
the dock is & what walking is & what these goddam creatures
are. Now this upset zim, but we will let him rest & recover
here byby assiduously not dezgribin gim...
The creagatores fall into seven pastel
sociologically structured groups: Ule, Falbagom, Brees, Mneumnteem,
Pempito, Naze, & Gra. Dressed quite niftily, as Qertomself
describes mumbling gina cup, they have a leader in gra yes a leader in
gra, who smile familiarlies, & a bunch of workmen types in red who
do not smile. Qert sniffs. 'Stypical...
O‑Host, a grahored beautibot in a
gragored suit (so that Qert knew it was false) smarmily directed some
red‑tuniced muscular humanoid menrobuic types to strip off Qert's
layerjings‑‑a thought what shock Qert to the end of no end of laughjing
off his very sanes of self this time. So he'd seem to be standin
there stripped of his crystalry, his servsmachs, his bufflenims, his
electriyins, STANDING THERE ON THE DOCK JUST AS NAKED & poorly
FORKED AS THEY!‑‑only moreso‑‑muchuch moreso o!
THE HEAVEN OF LAYERS AT THE LEVEL OF
SMILES
"My, what a handsome botic you are,"
thee falbagom angoles said. They said it with variations, back
& forth in time, & clever, wry, smug, condescending Qert
couldn't help but notice that they flowed pempitos honey at him as he
said it. He perceived they were working very hard at honeying him, at
sweetening some message inside the message of his beauty they were
humming hum. He smiled beneath his first layer‑‑for this was a
heaven of layers‑‑knowing they were trying to trip him, I mean trick
him, into droopinis guards.
"OK, that 'snough," said the gra grill
spargent, & the amgels spattered. They spattered like white
birdshit. They splattered, like milkwhite shit. They
shattered like shit. They smattered, but it didn't
mattered. "Drop your guard, Qert," he ord red.
& Qert, still with that dumb smuck
snile on his flace, commence to peeling off the many onion heavenly
layers that normally & supposedly always protect your botic.
From attack. From intraversic fears. From exottack.
From False Havens Evidently, that's "Heavenge Evidemptly."
He p e e led o ff h is l ayers
like so much underwear, like a foolish man, a stupid man, a simpleton
forsooth, who strips off the many layers of clothes he is wont to wear
to cower his nupidmeff, smiling uncomprehendingly as the torturers
grease up & sharpen up & juice up their wares yessure.
Mustobena potent enough message, enh
Qert? But Qert's gnot gnistening, the little sgnot, & the
drill sergeant 'swhistling 'sternly through his nose nase as he step
frowd to peel off the smile which‑‑now that Layer One hath been
removed‑‑hang like a poor melodramatic stache from Q what's left off
Qert's zupper ilp.
Sans smile, but still with that
selfsame stupid stupidity huneyed on, Qert strips off Layer Two, the
Layer Three, then Four Five Six Seventh Vector Seventh Vector Devector
Senevth Sector Veneth Veight Eight Nine Xextor X Z‑Sec Dector Eff Ex Ex
Ex‑Ex Ten Ben Ventor Bex, & so on, down through the intricacies
which were made to make it impossible even for the goddam botic self to
undress. But the sergeant's working on it.
Now naturally Qert can't handle
himself. Correctly can't he hamber imzelf. Truly can he
naught deandle dimxulph. He just keep umbressing, for these
heavenly folkave flummoxim pretty good. He's in deep trouble, he
know, though would still be smiling if he still had Layer Two (that's
the level of smiles) to cover him, for it won't be long till these
brilliant marines er probin an pokin into his intimate depths.
Qert'll be fucked then; the gods themselves'll be in dutch at that out
intrime, as the whole secrets of the botics & the entire premise of
the novel‑‑not to mention some of the deep underlying depth psychology
opurating in this outhor's mented mind‑‑will be unraveled. Hell,
we've write ourseols into a real hole, men.
"Rill‑hole, men!" shrooks the
sergeant, & the "men"‑‑rather smaller, frailer, still‑white but
frilly, rarthur silly, marines‑‑start unwrapping some of the layers so
golly deep that even Qert's emergency subconscious memory files philes
can't handle it, cannot ik=mage it, & have never seen the likes of
a flay so flayso deep as this...
MODIFIED MORBIDITY
This word ik=mage...
Qert lay beneath the soft gauze of
what‑would said to be hospital bed. He would have smiled except
his smile was dead. Just about everything was dead in this stor,
except for those few pulseform maintain by the Gentle Machines, which
loved Qert endlessly‑‑right to the endless end of the goddam stor,
layer upon layer of these fine things clickin in disrhymix & mixin
the light colors of their lithe plasticaires unto the maintenance of
those skeletal ashpex of life that lit there, right from the center,
representing the heart, which is where Qert unsmiling lay.
But his soul was full of glee.
I'll have to tell you that, for it is not something which occurred
"inside" the stor or which could thereby be measured there me measured
there be me beasauredere. That had to do with Qert's desire that
he be perfectly protected in this stor. It seems a little morbid,
I guess, but I can't spend my time & energy‑‑such as it
is‑‑explaining or apologizing for the morbidity of a stor made by a
creature or thing or entity, none of it having yet been very
well‑defined, who have somehow contracted with another, similar
(hey‑‑for all practicalc purepose's identical) creature man ding or
thing orthing thin gorthing to keep on shooting him, in universe after
universe, just to see it can be done. I can't keep apologauzing
for what might strike your doubtless‑dis‑eas‑ed mind as "morbiod" or
"eerie" or "creepoy" or whatever whatever, OK OK?
Let's say anyway it had a certain
modified morbidity, inasmuch as Qert saw to it that anyone entering
this stor was immediately & instantly & irredeemably on his
deathbed, see, surrounded not by starry feys but by pulsating machines
known as Starry Feys™ which kept just the minimal thing
zalive. This was Qert's little Deathbed Stor, the slangory
Croakoerystoer, hor‑hor, & you can bet his real actual
strongly‑pult‑zingheart was out there somewhere, in the storic anteroom
no doubt, absolutely pulpshwing wiph glee, to thingk that no one (which
was how, by contract, he was amnesiacly obliged to think of Qert in
these his various ceptualorz) could possibly get to him to kill him
here.
Yea, Qert was comfy in his bed &
dying rather endlessly, & the machines thrulled him with love, all
of which daccorded with the manner in which this strange stor had been
set up, & worked on endlessly, by him. He thought his friend
Qinz would never think of this (this he thought between storts, whilst
a workin' on stors, onstor, whenin he was allowed of course to think
about Qinz as someone other than no one see) & wouldn't be able to
kill him, & he, Qert, would win the stor & doudouble the score
& jubble the score & bubble the scroer yousee.
Heh‑heh‑heh, is a reasonable simulacrum of what he dthought.
This botic Qinz sook one took at the
Deathbed Stor & laughed. He entered, lay sighing on his own
deathbed in the absolute same circumstance as Qert‑‑which was by
design‑‑& surely there was no way he could kill his friend in there.
No way? He smiled his last
smile, did Qinz (not accounted for in Qert's design, by the way).
I have tried my self purple trying to discern just where this fucking
last smile comes from comes from fomes crum butIcan't. I azzume
it was just a flicker of joy so murderously great twa zallowed by the
gods, who must've filliped a dollop of suspension as they'd often do
for Qinz of the lores of storsics & made possible this laugh like a
glint off the Towereeth of Speel as it glimps in the zun of
Tangorpeantipe‑Eeoolipann) & gently pluck twono the servopumps from
his arm‑‑which as you already expect was the white of the perfect death
o the ghostly whale, perfect juiceless lifeless light, thin white,
ghastly but eerily manic white, joyewhite in a sense, in a shape of
white that grows without shape in a timeframe existent outside
shape. Pretty pale arm out of which he beautiful beautiful cord
keeping him live.
Whereupon he dies & Qert inherits
his ghostly smile discust tubuv, except that
&
things commence to die
&
things astart to die
&
one by one the pieces of this massive
stor‑‑in which we gather (quickly gather!) that everything's
connected‑‑die!
They die like this: d1e d2e d3e d4e
d5e: nntnl thn nnmbnrs bnur.
Until the wave of death blossoms
intverxal in‑‑to Qert lying on his bed in the center of the stor‑‑&
he dies, sucked in by That Very Grin.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
THE DOCTORS' MILLENI ALREPORT
or
QERT NOR HERT NOR HURD
"You're a sick man, Mr. Botic," de
Doctor D declared.
"Sick? Man?" declaration
queryqerg was not hert nor hurd, & he himself (Qert) was (Qert) was
filled with nothing but this oleaginous greyish putrid sordolf
half‑thought thought‑haph awareness that they had gotten his name
wrong, but he could tell there was some External Force (actually it was
the Internal Force of one of the Corek=mages of Qert's much‑tooted
little nub, but he didn't know that & he didn't know that) that was
making him forget imsef rapidly at‑that.
For by this time or that time they had
fed him into a tube, & the tube had turned translaprent, so they
could observe whilst Qert was sucked to the edges of the glass, that is
sucked to the edges of the glass he was sucked inin & stretched
more or less into a tuba shape. A tuba shape.
There were reasons for this, as came
out in that section call‑ed "Reasons for This" in the creamwhite
document known as The Doctors' Milleni Alreport‑‑but this report, as
its name implies, comes out once per millennia, this being a very
healthy if unseemly universe 1) healthy seamy universe, 2) healthy
seeming universe, 3) healthily steaming univlursh, 4) helph ebeaming
woony verx, 5) wealthy xiimnimng goon‑oui‑worts, 6) helky‑sweeming
soonin‑vorsch)‑‑& so Qert did not get to peruse it, at least not
for a long a while, a long long whilst I de cide if he lasts that long.
I can tell you that, if I have him
last that long, Qertillbe most enamored of the document, which given
the time & the cutted‑idge enxporteesch of its priparatium was as
you might given the c‑i e of its p expepct a massive & gorgeous
multilinear affair. It was the cream that got him‑‑that & his
own tuba‑waped face TUBAWAPEDFACE!! right in the middle of the
centremost cube of the clear lozewnge of liquid crystal living light at
the heart of the huge structure which was despite its vast size &
strucuture But The Size Of A Magazine, which is an impossible lie &
paradox & lie & paradox & nya‑nya‑nya ha‑ha. Nothing
lasts forever‑‑what do you care.
Or then again, everything lasts
forever, Qert was thinking (remember Qert? Thinking?) as they
examined him & worked on him.
They'd said he was a "man." This
is not what the botic thinks I am. He may think he's a god.
He may think he's a workman. He may thing he's some sort of
erbodic angel wisping on the power of his Central Whim, also known as
the Sintrol Whing, a.k.a. the Impkrul Rimg or the Pimkurl
Ik=Mag=Ing. But he sure as hevik don't think he am a mam.
LITTLE‑GNOME EDWISDOM
The vivisection begins. They're
chuckling & pulling out the ik=mages. It's unusual to see a
chuckle in this sector, as even mouths in the various Intraverx, stors,
megastors, stor‑"cities," & heavens‑true & heavens‑false are a
rarity, usually having been omitted like mouths omitted‑‑but these
technicians, rather an awkward & frisky lot, I'd say, not only
chuckle, they prance & shake their heads, the chuckle forming more
or less as an imaginary radiant in the palefield of thought we know as
the mouth area. Nothing here, readers, but a big soft phoney
upper "lip" exuding that magnetory call‑ed PHONINESS ah, & in the
midst of it a liquid, animated sort of glowing grin of such wrong
colors rong qulurs you'd swear this ik=mage (like this passage like
this memory) comes from c. 1950 when your mother was just initially
wriggling out of dearth unto the dazzle‑spacies of the sky out of
Outher Burth.
& indeed, this is where all=mages
come from. This is little known. Such knowledge is call
edwisdom, little‑gnome.
They chortle their glee, & I will
not get off on a tangent of chortles here, which can kill you with its
glee, chortles being quite unlike chuckles despite the similarity of
words, despite Looshe Carooll, despite all the little girls he slid the
long lie of his camera upinto (lucky Loo!). No, it's well worth
avoiding avoiding digressiums on chortles, for the average
intraverx‑brand chortle is well‑night big as a star, big as a blue
giant of a star, big as an unusually tough & bullying blue giant of
a hot hot fucking star‑‑not stor, but star, I say star, not stor,
knotstor, noxtor, or or or or or 1‑5, & we don't want to get beat
up & singed by a chortle here. But chortle, by God, is just
what they do.
& they pull out mage after mage
from the ik=mage phylof Qert. O! Reader! O, but I cry
at this point, just to let you know I'm sincere, for not only smiles
but sincerity have been long‑banned here, & this is why I'm in one
of those kinda timewarp prisongs that wrap you up even before you
commit your crime, ere your crime, to save on time, to get you jailed
on time the judge told me as she capered & jortled with glee.
You ask about Jortled &
Glee. I am glad you asked. Their act disbanded c.
199550.500150/4800.0 for Unauthorized Employ of Smiles Sincerity, "nor
qualities to that effect," in the judge jolting ords (see ORDS c‑ords
opening:K/Ords‑C). They are in a prison, but not with me.
No, not with me. No. I spin round alone in mine crystal, I
assume this be just like thee.
Anyway, those engineers they keep
slixxing from our grax (see GRAX, SLIPFUM) pulling poor detruit Qoit's
ik=mages out from his heart as it were (digression here *) with
chortlers, etc., of glee, & not only with these rare
emotions‑‑indicating proximity of God? indicating intensity of
botsecting‑vent? indicating X?‑‑but with these enormous wooden
calipers, the sort used for hauling nine‑by‑five feetpronts from the
pool of their chemicals, really big thangs, rechoiring a lot of
invisible paranoid servomechanisms to park em into action, & to
haul what are really absurdly minuscule day=mages from the also‑small
qert of Gut.
I can't explain the discrepancy in
size, unless the fat, blunt‑tipped wooden tweezers zare some sort of
weirdr dream sort of symbol of the excessive emotions (not to mention
digressions: "Digressions") autoquipped in this while authorial seen
here eer. I can't explain the discrepancy in like size, but I'm
sure you can if you just smuck you smirk with gryy, if you simply uk
your erk with zee, if you only tuck your skirts whiff V, if you but ut
yur ur with thyy, elkcuhc‑elkcuhc.
But underneath all the nonsense, you
can see or perhaps feel, or goddam it at least imagine their heads
shaking with something much deeper, much more an actual shaking, not of
the head, not of the brain, not even of the ether of the brain, but of
the illegal ik=mage of brain that is clear & deptht, pellucid,
limpid & yet very keenly hued. This inner self shake with a
deep sincerity of admiration for the being who is being
destroyed. Always we see, in our works, this deep admiration for
the thing we are they are torturing. Thus it is in this case in
is it, for these mage're like something never seen. These are, or
were intended, to be products of the gods, to be savored by their
special eyes only, real eyes, not just imaginary allseeing godly‑tis,
neither nur, I'd say...and even the owner & "maker" of those mages
(this is Qert we are not speaking of of hear!) has never seenemeer.
So inside all their capering &
their silly expressions, sounds, n' calipers as I so quaintly call
them, behind all the authorial self‑ruff‑rentches of prisms &
etcetera, we have porofound & true amtoinos, I'm straining to let
you see, straining to erase through jiggling I guess my uh
"personality" just for the instant long enough to let you see, see!,
those ik=mages of life swaying with moved sincerity indepth at
lay=mages just vivisected from our dear (Qert) heer, & they are
humming om with admiration of these mages of life they've stolen from
the death of the life of the world they inhere.
Too bad. They go of course
instantly blind‑‑which is what happens when you torture your babies,
& which may explain all that capering up there, if anything
explains the blindness & the torturing of babies & the capering
up here, hear me‑‑here.
"I stared madly at the scalpel," Qert
recall, "which wasn't really a scalpel, of course, but a sort of light
beam, except that it was not a light beam either, but a manner of
semantic dislocator, except that it was very grey. Once you strip
away enough layers you get grey. But this wasn't a clear or clean
grey, such as the beautiful cartoonist might ink across the dray.
No, it was dirty. It looked greasy or dusty, possibly mildewed,
probably soiled.
"And it must have affected my eyes,
too, for everything had that paifnul soiled & mutsy look‑‑not
healthy aging into beauteous ivory or gritty mechanisticality,
no. No, it was definitely something sick & painful, like that
overexposed porno movie your father oersposed you to while he placed
his penis in your tiny hand. That hand wasn't dirty before.
"'My eyes weren't dirty before,' I
commented to the doctororor.
"'No,' he said, oping up the last
shell around my precious phial. 'The life's gone out. The
pain‑‑it's everything.'
"'Well put,' I grunted, & the file
was pulled out. & I thought this thought much too deeply
aware: You've just plucked out the essence of me, the essence of
Qert. In this deep form, the thought occurred in the mere form of
kinaesthetic movements‑‑I humped the thought & it humped me.
Down there at that depph we were one, entwangled qheought, but nextly
the thought repeated itself a little closer to the surface, wherein it
took the form of a gaudy lot of dream images like the ik=mage points
that ik=mage points that hang on on like dew to the gravid sides of one
of the cartoonisht's most pregnant plethic frames‑‑one of her
fertility‑goddess frames to which your ik=mages your=mages attasch,
& there the thought was a dream world I wander din.
"A dream world I wandered in.
& next it took the form of a very deep, guiltprone, deathridden
subterranean thought that I was afraid to admit, & here the thought
was a blackness all around like the mass that sits on your head as you
wait, breathless for your torture, wait.
"And then it came froth as a real
thought, except for a moment there was pain & I could not utter it.
"'You've just plucked out...'"
"Pardonme? What's that, Qert?"
"'...the essence of Qaqaqaqa.'"
"Naw!" the scientist said, brightly
but grimy. "No‑‑we han't 'pulk‑tout your essence,' Qert.
You're still qaqaqaqa‑Qert. Your eyes're clearing, aren't they
Qert? {And yes, my eyes'ere clearing & the goddam grime was
going away!} We've healed you, young botic, yes we did!
Your phile‑‑your precious 'essence of you'‑‑it was this."
"And he held up a bullet‑‑a god damned
bullet in my gut!"
VOICES DIN & SLAND
or
EYES WHICH LOOKS ABSURD IN THIS
WORDLESS WARD
The creagator scientists in that thin
& sheetlike way‑‑more like the surface of Oceania roused by the
sensual winds of one of those sensual Mediterranean‑stylish ultraseas
that we seas that we seas that we all wallultra have‑‑& rip off
rubber masks revealing momentary SKULLS that however (that however) dim
dunward like exhausted wings wings & shake their heads until
sparkling lifelight hair flails gaily round with the false speculated
gaiety of science, & they rip off gloves revealing momentary BONES
then they make a lot of shuffling (exhaustion) exhaustion noise as they
turn to the sleeping figure of Qert in his creagator form & they
sigh...
"He's totally withdrawn. I'd
call it mad if we but called things mad anymore. Totally
mad. But I shan't call it that, except there's nothing we can do."
They pause & slide. The room
goes through a small dimensional slide, whereby first one end, then in
acceleration the entire room stretcheth sidewise with a slidewrise
bending‑of‑down, whipping the minds of the two docreagors in
apsychoanalogous manner, giving 'em pause...
"Except dissect him."
"I beg your pardon."
"Sure. No problem. No
sweat. Nothing to matter...er..."
"No‑‑I mean, why did you just say
'Except dissect him'?"
"I don't remember. I was hoping
you'd remember. Must be dimensional slide."
Now one of these two gets all of a
saudden to looking really tough & know‑it‑all‑‑you know: cocky,
full of himself, acting out adolescent‑borne false bravado, literally
sticking his tongue in his cheek, strutting, standing in exaggerated
contraposto in a body's voice that says I am afraid of fantasy...
"Yea‑‑thassit. Yup," he says in
tones ringing with harmonics of the voice of the tones I just got done
so painfooly describibing. "Muss be onadem dimensnl slides!
Yea, that's it...that's it...that's it it it..."
They notice they're in the room with
Qert.
"Who the fuck is that?"
Now the other one‑‑not the one who was
looking like a punk a minute ago, which is a very common way of trying
to "psychologically 'recover'" from imemsional slide, much noted in the
heavy slide zones (O yea, them heavy slide zones you feel‑in‑yer heavy
slibe bones, o yea o yea!)‑‑slaps the first one, well, in a low‑comedy,
Three‑Stoopoogedy sorta manner, whopping him upside the head with the
heel of a mighty, science‑elonggaaaated hand: WHOP! WHOP!, he
go. WHOP! WHOP! WHOP! he crescendoze. &
WHOP1 WHOP2 WHOP3 he scientifically throes n' goes.
WHOPWHOPWHOP! Slaps him well.
"That's Qert, you dummy‑‑Qert.
Qert! Qert! Qert!" with a sweaty capital WHOPN at
eachnevery twerm.
"We'll have to dissect him."
"Vivisect, I believe you mean," sayeth
one of them‑‑I have lost track which. But they're both pretty
peculiarly glad to be out of that lapse back there lapse back where
lapseback air.
"I see. We can dissect him
later."
"Hahahahahaha! Or put him back
in his stor!"
"Hehehehehehe! Except it might
not work so well!"
"Huhuhu! Look at him. He
doesn't even have any color left. Can that happens?"
"U‑u‑u‑u‑u! If it happen,
yes. Let me go to D{ayyac} to get some fine opalades for the
cutting. I mean for some really fine cutting, close & sweetly
to the core, cutting right through those fat little cells, slicing it
as it were right through their little smiles, their little hands
wringing together, their organelloid hearts, the curses of their eyes,
their eyebeams, their eyes, hyhyhyhy!"
"Boy, you sure rubbing your hands
& beaming your own little 'organellic' eyes & crossing &
recrossing your eyes‑‑which looks absurd in this wordless ward, by the
by‑‑& also I cannot help but note crossing your legs giving scruze
n' squeeze n' screws n' screes to your genitals‑‑& making you walk
rather funny, way the way‑‑& as I said again rubbing your hands,
the cells falling in Absolute Despair & also dryly to the floor
which is liquid here (I just notice: we have a liquid floor!
Hey‑‑psst! Hey! Hey! Pssst! We have a..."
"Yes, I...)"
Voices din & Sland.
(None of which affects Qert. He
hears only the quiet dripping of the washwater, the orange‑red light of
the darkroom wavering on the low roof, reflected off the big white
trays of chemicals‑‑enormous trays, which lift like the skin of the sea
revealing the handiwork of Uthor underneath.
This being Qert's theory,
anyway. He's developing sheet after sheet of the fine
emulsion. It shows things about the (surprisingly dark) interiors
of these stors you would never expect‑‑things no sort of cosmic
opalades could sever. Now if you can see what's really going on
under the forces of these stern stors, if you can just get all the data
processed down here, with the darkroom timeclock ticking & letting
off a humongous blazt of a buzz at intervals more regular than the
periodic microstors & the acrid chemicals bringing out
electrochemical memories in the subvoltages of your mind that you don't
want or need any more than the False Heaven of the Broken Heart to
bleed‑‑if you can only just manage to put the secrets together before
that oplade comes cutting through the red vestige tadders of your
consciousness, sending you doubtless up DOUBTLESS DOUBLOUPT to the
False Heaven of the Saved or the Saaved or the Saaaved‑‑you can see the
aesthetic by which this funny stor was put together, achoke on
urlaughter & formless pain, you can see secrets they can never cut
out, you can take off with your pure treasure with your egg of pleasure
you can get free of this weightless feeling of wight in the False
Heaven of the Endless Weight, OK?
(If you can get these pictures
developed on time...
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these pictures developed o
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PATTERNS ON THE PADS
Qert trying to forget all these
delusions hunkers down in his special chair & tries to get to
work. He doesn't remember well his work, & when he looks up
from his work he notices he's in a botic‑beaker, & that the hoards
of the stoards are gawking at him. There was something he was
supposed to remember, but he has gone too far...
Qert couldn't help but notice that the
faces outside the beaker were exceedingly grim. One of those
faces was his longlost Qinz, & when Qert, pink & giggling
inside the vax of stimulant gasses & gasses & steam, bobbed his
head & nodded farcically by way of saying h'lo, Qinz just redoubled
his grimness, moving his hands over the surface of the bulb, trying to
find a flaw or something. Qert thought he saw a phlit swolling
out of the corner of Qinz's eye or mouth (he missed that detail so I
make it two detail details), as if his friend were saying
"Shshsh! Quiet! Not now!" or somesuch, & he anxiously
laid his head back...
Qinz was surrounded by blue
technicians‑‑& it seemed to baby Qert that Baby Qert that these
fellows were at once direblue & threateningly too‑thin. Now
did he like the way they were moving so quickly around the beaker,
drawing an observable geometric pattern around the stolid Qinz.
& hey‑‑if Qinz looked serious, you can well imagine you can well
how these faceless jokers looked.
They had no faces. I have given
the detail(s) zaway.
Still‑and‑yet‑though‑howver‑O, they
were very likely bad technicians, possibly‑‑if I may "wing it," if you
please; if I may "extrapolate" a mite here please; if I "might" please;
if I "please"‑‑bad little technicians evenso, but they were dirty,
anway, the way their fingers had some sort of marks or indentations in
them, patterns on the pads that left dark greasy little spots on the
heretofore pristine survax of the beaker‑ur. An alarmed &
tiny Qert (really tiny, like!) furriously rubrubbed frotted on the
squure, & a blue face blew faceup tiny‑to‑him‑nere & laughed
out rageously.
Had a face for a moment, here
thought Qert.
& meantime busy Qinz had gained a
purchase on a crack in the surface of the bax, & like a coagulant
blue liquid the Kruds strang their hangs onto the crack & were
pulling‑‑some this way, some that, right along with the stronger &
ostensibly more stronger Qinz‑‑& trying to crack the outer shell,
the shell, & the glasses frurled in alarm yes‑they‑did, & Qert
grew evermore alarmed, yers he ded, & it oqqurred to him that that
phlit that that Qinz had had send might have a message in it‑‑&
when I say might have a message in it I mean it might have a message in
it other than the message Qert had thought that he'd sent that he said
I meant.
So Qert pulls back. He look like
a baby in alarm. He look like your second baby looked when you
first busted his defenses with your arm. He look like a baby
looks when it finds out it's a baby in your world.
But he was none of these exactly
things. He was Qert Bottotic, using his servomechanisms yes to
scan a phlit heregoes.
"{Lot if his. Hurriedly
made? Deliberately obscure‑‑I hate that!‑‑or bad phlixion in the
ether‑net nexus of the yure? Sounds like hhhhsssssshshshshshhhhh}
I'm gonna kill you really fast, this time, Qert. We're on a new
campaign to get you fast. We figure the stors turn out
better. I figure the guilt will be no more. I mean, I have
thought long & hard‑‑while you were fucking sleeping between your
term‑‑& decided the guilt I fell is a poison that comes from you,
& I have, Qert, spoken to the gods regarding the possibility that
this poison‑‑besides fucking up my killings & qillings of you,
& thus interfering with my Professional Integrity‑‑may be infecting
the stors you lay more & more, so that we are starting now to get
these aborted monstrosities, these dead & distorted worlds, these
partial & sick universes, borne doubtless from diseased ik=mage
files defiled, if I may, by your own poisons, Qert‑‑that is, distorted
in their essence by the poison of the guilt you are squirting to me
whilst I try to pruify things by killing you, or squilling you, depends
on which sector I am ing.
"So {hhhhsssshshshshhh!} the gos says
to me, they says they says, 'Well hey, man, you might be right be
right, ol' Qinz ol; boy‑‑& we mean to say that you're our
boy. But what do we do we do we do?'
"And likehhhshshshhh I says to the
goigs, 'Hey well‑‑don wory, K? Noq to freq. No
sweaq‑‑hey. We've just gotta kill the fucker squick‑‑ere he gets
to grow up in the worlds.'
"And like the gods man the gods says
to me, 'Qinz. We dig what you're sayin, K? But like, we cut
a deal with Qert, man. It's like we have a deal.' 'And like
what's the deal?' I says. & they sort of like reply, 'Well,
man, we can't give out detaildetail details of the deal or deals, you
can comprehend that am I sure amman,' & what can I say so I says
yes, & they says, 'But like, it was part of the bargain‑‑& we
need to mean too emphasize herein that it's quite a CENTRAL part of the
goddam heheh bargain, man, that (ahewm!) "The aforementioned Qert
Bottotoci, who will as aforeshed function as botic in this lurl (legal
talk‑‑mumb‑go‑jung‑bworurl), getsa to like spend endless childhoods
after childhoods in the worlds of his own creating, stipulating &
devolved upon the following stipulations...blah‑bleh‑bluh," you see.'
"And I like said, 'I see.' &
we sats real silent for a whiles.
"And what I'm tryin to say is, we all
looked at some movies of the universes‑‑some of your best work, Qert,
& it moved us to deep tears‑‑& these blue creatures you see
(blue creatures you see on the outside of this dream) outside the
beaker of this dreen are the results of these tears. They are the
tears.
"Because, Qert, man‑‑& I say this
vivividly‑‑we thence looked at your most recent worlds.
Hhhhshshshhh‑‑what more can I shay, ol Qert ol boy advisedly?
Hhsshshshshsss‑‑we saw the Dead World & the Gob World & the Dud
World & the Gub World & the Gobbet Woarld & the Egg Wurld
& the Fucking Boxic World (clever‑clever, qute, self‑reflexive,
mirriry, Qerl!) & the Blottic World & the Fug Gowoarl & the
Guf Roarual & the Dot Blural‑‑pathetic stuff, Qert. 'Sathetic
Smuff,' in the words of the words of the gods of the gods of
worldshhsshshshhh.
"So we checked over your contract
& in essence said fuck it, man. 'Cause you weren't like
delivering the googs, you see? You'd bruuched that suucher, we
zided, long gago. & while certain deep legal arraingements
mush B‑made in the ultraviolemp depths of the Legalurld, it was thought
safe & seemly & OK & meet heyhey that I‑‑ahem!‑‑like begin
to cut you out sooner, hear?‑‑contract notwithstanding,
Qerththththhhh..."
Blinking awake, Qert saw with alarm
they were peeling back the outer shell. Now he had death to greet
him the instant he awoke, & an existence, it seemed, of nothing but
sleep & the work‑creation & just one viv*d fl*sh of light,
followed by infanticide‑‑of him!‑‑& not the chain of childhoods
he'd envisioned‑‑& negotiated‑‑for himself.
Now it's true Qert remembered none of
this‑‑none of what Qinz had said about contracts & gods & stors
& universal deals. & it's true that Qinz was that worst
of scuggs, the deluded liar, whose lies sometimes swung round back at
you & got true because he was so inverted‑miroir‑yee! wrong you
shee. So he couldn't utterly trust the total phlit.
But he did.
"YAAAA!" squeamed the Baby as they cut
through the tubes. The gasses started to run about, & Qert
was vivid with tears. He'd fool them a bit before he died‑‑this
was his universe, after all, with the usual set of secret subrules
meant to subvert his murderin' pal.
But after that‑‑after Qinz, who was
perfect with murders in his soul, succeeded as he must, as even the
structure of the universe suggeusts, in killing him‑‑Qert had a bone to
piq with the goddam gaugs...
THE ONLY LEFT COHERIMP IN THESE
or
PHLIZZARDS OF PLASMA GASH
& so the beaker, & with it the
stor, shatter xeplosively, with a shardic vengeance of very
nasty‑looking pieces, their shape antemorphed through shaped charges
set in their clear capillaries & their tendons of glass & in
the sonic stomes on their essences deeper than bomes.
You can do that. If you have
enough technicians helping you, & Qert has this unprecedented
following of tiny little engineers, bucktoothed & nerdy, who will
spend milliards of chronocyclic internities shaping those nasty shards
to Qert's perfection. & these guys come up with ideas of
their own as well. I mean, these are not mere venturers.
These are not servomechanisms, if I may use the word
{servomechanisms}. These are tiny, sycophantic, slavering,
obsequious, unctuous vuvid little weasels, but they have free will,
& they worship Qert. They worship Qert with their own
peculiar energy, & it takes the form of living endless time doing
drudgery for him, in order to make his stors what these {engineers}
like to call "schitzofround," which means essentially
really‑really‑reallyreally deep, insanely detailed, which is, or was,
that which Qert's stors are or were noted for or fore or frore orefroar.
& like I say, the engineers come
up with their own ideas, which is something you can perceptively
digress into even as this latest stor explobes with the morbor of Qorp,
such that the slashed & slattered pieces & the slassed
ensghlitterd pietzes & the sashed inzijjurd pleeces of Qert &
Qinz's's cow'ring bodies envel‑ope onean‑other in a shower o' towrin'
fear. "Fear. That's how you end a stor. Give 'em
fear, lotsa fear." ‑‑Qert Bottotic & th' Engineers o'
Fear. & whilst this is happening, you can notice‑‑underneath
these blizzard‑like all‑gashing little nastards if I may of glass,
which just keep raining down & whirling back up & reforming
into various DEEP BLIZZARDS & variorous BEEP PLIZZARDS &
forming again‑anew into yet‑other‑nouveau nations & barbaric
"civilizations" if‑may of nastardalities, hee‑hee, so that you thing,
what with one wind puf & the swelter of emotions & motions
ong‑ga‑go like this, poor gravity will never have a chance & will
neer get a purchase & this nightmare WILL NEVREND!‑‑the Severely
Outré Wailing Sound.
Note severely outré waiwing
swound. That was invented by the tiny engineers abovallud edtoo
who worshiqert, youwooal recaul, as a parallel to the exciting visual
stuff & the shards flaying the essence right out of the twins up
there. Cut apart like that & their faces‑‑what's left of
em‑‑deadbabybloated by the farting, I mean wailing, sounds, they do
look like twins. Their their bodies will be gone, soon.
Looks like some of those clever little designers figured a way to make
the sound actually enhance the cutting, so the soundwaves are loosening
up the flesh, so we have these billions of Perfect
Blades‑‑tightgineered knives hones & calculated endlessly in the
stoptime ormation of the stor‑‑hacking with euphoric zoundz into what
must cut to them like butter.
Iiiiif we could get a microeye in
there...
oe
oe
oe
But we can't. I tell you oel
hell brokes louse when a stor ends‑‑& one of Qert's stors oer
always designed like this to end so cataclysmically & with such
apocalypse of thunder & with such sheer outblowing waves of
antequantumenergy that no known recording device knowem too gnone has
ever or will theorieticall and/or storically bable to write or
crystallize or memzorize nor motherwise record the unstance of its
happening. It's just impossible, like trying to draw the cosmic
primordial ylem (though that's not a goob comparisonb, as many artists
have tried to draw or represent the ylem‑‑so this is even worse), so no
one remembers, no one draws word‑pictures, no one paints, & god
knows no machinery or memcrystal can tape or track or wire or in
anywise record what happens when a Qertic stor blows.
It's not contractual. Au
contraire‑‑the gods have it in the storic contrax that they have all
intraverxic rights to the image of the stors. Only Qert‑‑together
with those licey little engineers I hate alluding two‑‑has outfoxed
them good‑and‑good with his Postexistence Terminator as he calls it as
he thinks it as he dies.
For Qert's dying, no doubt about
it. More importantly‑‑& if I may, more friendlily‑‑Qinz dies
too, & his gun is for a second the only left coherimp in these
phlizzards of plasma gash, until it, too, too, too, too...
After which the two buddies emerge in
a blue euphoric shower full of laughter which for just an instant cuts
the edge...and then settles down‑ellipsis‑down...down, & then,
jolly & naked like the two buoyant athletes they are, they towel
emselves vigoprously as they step into the antechamber, where we've
been before, wheryin every venture endsy entrue nends.
"Whew!" & "Gawd!" & "Woaw!"
they intratwaing. Shape, I mean Shake they their heads & move
with nerve‑rapidity. Now {somewhere in a hidden verge} the li'l
engineers break open bottle after bottle of nerd champagne, which has
its own tiny tacky appropriateness, given that this was The
Bottle‑Surge or Stor de Bouteilles, asth Qert onaly now revealth.
"Haaaawwww! Howdalike it?
Huh? Huh?" screeches Qert, punching & pumping Qinz
newly‑growm murderim garm.
"Whooooa! Whoo‑AAA!" roars Qinz,
throwing his head so farback back‑atroars. "Bottles, man‑‑what's
with the bottles man," & such like that.
They sure do luagh! Luaghs
envelop. Yellowed emvelope luaghs. They are licked &
sealed in these envelopes of luaghs‑‑or at least this is how some of
the gods' peculiar recording vices desee it, detellit. Gods are
very metaphorical. Gods exist in clear envelopes thirteen feet
high. Some of them. We rip the seal & it LUAGHS!
Golbutit LUAGHS! It just LUAGHS! & LUAGHS! & LUAGHS!
& like Qert & Qinz‑‑clearly hyysterical, their mutual
celebration ultracorded in Shamebless Intimacy by frustrated,
surprised, & stunned gods everywhere, aching with the need to
store‑‑also flow many liquids, with many bubbles, the scweaming &
the straight‑time & the edges washing dges shing ff, ff, ff...
THE BODY IN
Shshshsh! The artist at work,
laties & gendlemum, on his ulatest Extravaganzic Stor.
Just who looks at these stor,
zanyhow? I mean, who goes in to them? Does anyone really
live in them? What are they here for? This place is hard to
find. I never see never see anyone here, except for those little
specks‑‑
Beg pardumb?
little teeny silver specks, like, that
sort of, uh, form the outline, rather, of a beast, or form, or whatever.
Well, that clarifies.
That. Shshshs,
pleashshshe! We enter the stori carea, or stormic
arima‑‑so‑called because it is so called, I mean, so coloured, with the
sweepings of stourm, for the pourtions of a stour that do not get
incourporated into the stor, or unto the stor, or undue la slor, become
like the sweepings of storm, take on the swume & the swuum &
the coloration zweum of a goddam storm, man, & fill what we are
wont to call the STORMIC ARENA, inwherech the leavings of the
stor‑‑those stor portions never to be stord‑‑cut up some touches &
act like a storm.
We enter the sotrmic or Storicke Arena
in plush zeroless shopes, beautifully designed, not cheapjack, plusch
solmic veneton encormanink plasthagoriasiaphic axakaxtic
indoshkosho‑agozhnic shopes that flatter enflater our fleer, for our
fleet due knot touch the ground, there being very little in the way o
groun din here.
See, this vast & STORMIC area
ARENA is a partually‑fuormed space. It has just enough "stretch"
(I like to say "stretch" & to hear myself say "'stretch'" & to
say "say '"stretch"'" & to say) stretch of dimensions to fit a body
in‑‑a body in without killing it‑‑the body in.
& even there herein he doesn't
loop, I ming look, too goob, I meem good, what with that gas mask he
has, making him look like a stork, or a stormstork, or a pigeon, or one
of those glottal arpeggios what formulate themselps unto the thick,
thick, hyperthickened atmosphaire of Laingdeneuwibough after
Laingdeneuwibough Lain-gde-neuw-ibo-ugh under Laingdeneuwibough in
Laingdeneuwibough of Lain-geg-eden-nen-enne-nba-wugh!, wherein vocals
sculp, voiphls "sculpt" like they love to hearmzelves sculp, & they
form structures muchlike whatever the fuck I was talking about up there.
O yeh‑‑Qert's fukkin face.
I think part of it comes from his
desire to repulse. I also think he is in a trance‑‑& your
botic don' look pritty when he's in a trance. Certainly Qert
doesn't. & indeed, he is also working with this recalcitrant
material, this "protocoagulant ylem" (I love to hear myself stretch
"proogoo anuplastulenk yoolyyem" mumem!), this highly toxic,
stormworthy stuff, which some say is the very stuff of weaponry, the
very power sortce, foromstampce, of the Vwah Greduxor, nthe selfsame
nettles of the tanglenet, nthe absolute shuttles of the bangoplet.
It's that bad, that serious.
It's dangerous, lethal, & tragic stuff to work with. I'd
rather stick my psychic fingers in to heal the brain ein painoddix Pon
than endure the inevitable, slow, morbid, deathly, suicidal,
nightmarish twanging of the guitar springs of the disease known in
circles of knome as storg.
Yea. Qert's got storg, you can
bep. Andime arfraid to mention that one of the symbombs of storg
is the tendency to work ever‑harder at your stor, locked timeless &
wellnigh spaceless in that aremna of storng, more & more truly
inspired, whilst that very pierce of inspiration pings deeper to your
heart in fex you morean dmore. Dmore.
We can't get sick. We have our
shopes‑‑our plusch solmic veneton encormanink plasthagoriasiaphic
axakaxtic indoshkosho‑agozhnic shopes, remember? So we can watch
him (his muscles do look swollen, don't they?)‑‑those aren't muscles,
those are dust (those aren't dust; that is death)‑‑death is dust,
OK? (OK, but I whisper hear the whisper of the stormic
hush)‑‑Hush! Not only can't we get sick, but Qert can ot
e en s e us.
Is it his trance?
No.
Is it his storg?
Naw.
Is it our shopes?
Not altogether. It haf to do
more with saranwrappish warpage of the space. He can't see us for
his chopping at the plastor‑strace. Ah‑‑you are thurprithed he
useth chithel, ay? He chisel off piece after piece of infinity
till he gets him right well down unto the rhythmic nothing, that near
nothing nesh we known as stor, poor storg!
MOLECULESMOL
In a move that would have been bold
had it been made a thousand yur zago, Qert decided to use his latest
stor to contact his father. Intresting premise.
"Dearest Dad," Qert wrote.
Actually, he wrote Dear Daddums, but then delete the Qert‑wrote &
then truend about again, his heart spinning on that perfect knot of
glass your heart always spings on long nom nas on you feel the beauty
of illusion truth of beauty sooth of same, & added the est &
paused. He sighed: whmph.
& just to think how all of this
was being recorded!
"I've been sick lately," he wrote
patiently on, etching queer words in the qveer of crystal that was the
substratum of his stor. "They've got me making stor after stor,
& well, heck, Dad {"Daddums" ‑‑Ed.}, I've been starting to forget
what I was doing. In fact, I can't remember even now what I am
doing, except that Qinz could show up anyplace anytime.
This fellow Qinz‑‑a botic like me, but
Exxentially Different, you understand, Dad {whereas amatter fact, there
was no Daddums to understand, inasmuck as botics don't have
daddums. ‑‑Zes.}‑‑shows up to kill me every time, in every
stor. I think it's a game, Pop. {Read Daddums for lacunic
lunar‑pop, pop pop pop!, whenas he was totally wrong; this was no game;
nossir; not by the gods, nossir! ‑‑Edzes.} Anyway, I'm
losing. I'm all mixed up because I sincerely believbe that
something went wrong with the mix {as it were, ‑‑Pop}, & it's
gotten out of hand. Hell, this letter may be part of a
stor‑‑possibly my own ddead stor‑‑& not me working on creating
stors at all, & so this Qinz'll show up any time like
Dad{dumsed}ytime.
His father appeared blue in the cloud
of his mind. "Take comfort, son," he said, "and remember: son."
"Yes‑Dad‑I‑re member that," gasp sQert
as the poet Phluorib put the lozenge back in its seal & the seal
slipped herself O! so easily back into the painfoeld & the
painfoeld slipped into something vague & purple plose & the
infinisnesinil (acause 1) there 2) now 3) much 4) room for clicks
anymore) click of the Vuor Reducer, making it moleculesmol.
This Phluorib mabe gextears witrh hiv
hombs. "Stop calling me Daddums, Qert. You botics are
poet‑mad. But anyway, & as I was recalling, there were in
fact these days‑‑before the killings, before the stors. You had a
father back then. I mean, it wasn't all Qinz." Qert nob
knowigly. (I must rewrite that letter to say Dear Qinz, he
thought, then shook him out of it. Poems were strong that way.)
"You had a shirt, I remember,"
Phluorib said, & here Qert's "face" (ha ha!) folds up rather like
the lozngnto its com po nent parthsh with disapproval, on account of he
don't like to be reminded of the poet's special access to it all.
I mean, it hurts‑‑even for a goddam verxtacurzic botic it hurURTs‑‑to
think of all these special intimate things that a greaseball like
Phluorib knows.
"Why are you such a 'greaseball'?" Qer
tinquires, at wishbe hind his back a foil wall o vinfinite
arabesphiligree ascend, convoolving oer his back so that suddenly Qert
looks like a body bouncing on a waterbed of gold in the endguld husks
of Waterwoad as if in the deepest sleep cutting free of concepts once
for all.
The poe tignore zit. He waxeth
eloquent about Qertses shirt, which was loose & plain white, of an
exquisite sentient silkaterial, not tailor cut at all, & really
several times too big, inasmuch as big hag any meaning in the
mentionless dimouph of the Zero Mouf, & somewhat unbottoned & I
guessic showing the hard contours of Qert's tens‑edback to the sort
advantage you recall in your Byroneams resemes e‑zeems
& like Qert spainfully ware that
Phluorib's really veilpressing his (Qert's (ha ha! (ha ha!) ah ah)
body) ah body, really just the halide sheathe of body which is the
functional modality of bodies here in the Haulo Worgs, but evidently
& neverthelesh much benamored by Phluoribteeheehee.
Being a poet, he can make it sound
like the fucking shirt's symbolic, but mainly it's just another way to
painfully show this uppity goddam bot, after all, that he's got access
to full & naked views of his complete & vulnerable body, that
he can set these those vulnerbilibees to motzium, that he can
accelerate the aging of the body & stor it & its myriad
gossameres liquidly back, liquidly back unto the liquid black that lies
<beneath> behind that waterbed of noise discorting herz elf be
hindim indimim.
Heasa greaseball, though, oblivious
though he mough. In fact, I think oblivity's a
characteristic‑‑aqualality if you will, or even equalaliquilidiilty‑‑of
greaseballs everywore. But he is grey, glistening, walking a bit
ahead of Qert, on to the next lozenge, is it were, & definitely
oleogendic, soft, disgustin a jollyolly way...
ESOTERINGEERED LORES O PHYJIQS
Qert's early works were good‑‑they
really were. They were, in the words of critic‑o‑stors Nen
Fegfchii, "brimful of brittle good moods, or, in the words of
also‑stora‑critic Gyynyys Zaza, 'abristle with good moves, or, in the
words of also‑stora‑criticOddonteezker Gim, "full of little rudes, or,
in the words of also‑stora‑critic Beechee 3, 'felt with bitter ludes,
or, in the words of also‑stora‑critic Gadja Ajdag, "gilt with glitter
dudes, or, in the words of also‑stora‑critic Twolp nyimGim (no
realation), 'atilt with flitter nudes, & or, in the words of
also‑stora‑critic Oo‑1‑oO OOaOO, "alilt with jitterrunes."'"'"'"
Here's one such small move, or mood
(or rude or lude or dudes) in runes: Qinz arrives at this broad,
concave swamp sort of place. It's colored a light blue, & up
clutes you can see subtle variations in its color &
texture‑‑variations not characteristic of swamp, which should give you
a clue, as should the very heavy air which fills the cupped part of the
swamp, & the soft sound of liquids, soft sounds of liquids, sounds
of the liquids, siflids, ounds.
Everything about this place seems
fishy, Qinz thinks. Qinz is built to think the wrong sort of
thoughts. At the annual Botic Verxmas Party, Qinz ends
conversations when he enters them. He lies like grey fluid in a
bag within them. His words disrupt. He's a killer‑‑what do
you expect? Then he just gives up. & they always find
him crying under the tinsel after the bash, curled & incredibly
tiny, with his murderer's ability I say "murderer's ability" to get
really small, with his knees pulled up & his arms around his knees
& his still‑big, sniffy face against the softness of his arms just
like the hurt child he will always be (& me) & have to be taken
home aboard special transports.
& there are no transports home.
Might be this party is another
stor. Still, Qinz is right is Qinz right is is as he walk
cautiously (but not cautiously enough, I'll bet!) not directly in but
along the perimeter of the swamp but slowly spiraling in but curving a
little more directly in but sniffing suspiciously as he goes in‑‑there
is something awfully fishy here. He's so damned scared Qert is
gonna defeat him.
This is what givthe god spleasure,
this ambility (of Qert's) to to to to flummox n hornswoggle Qinz (back
in the early days, the early stors, wayways) & make him fear.
It's good, the gos say, that this Qert person‑‑preprogrammed &
destined as he is to be be killed‑‑can create such a world of such
distortive complexities that he scare the guy who's destined to kill
him‑‑gol!
So they say. Anyway, Qinz's
holding the contractual "Big Ugly Gun" in one hand, & against the
vast & intricate‑‑truly sleep‑imprussif‑‑texcheers of this swamp,
he looks ridiculous. His brown boots & space‑pants of leather
look stupid, too‑‑as they would not, say, on the glo‑struts of a big
old town, but which Qert has not created here, or the lo‑strux of a
megafluorm, which Qert has not hinted here, or anywhere dry &
ordinarily storestrial‑‑but Qert hashe naught oblig edhere‑‑& the
duds looks stupider as old Qinz starts to think, & the gods rollick
& laugh at the thought, glub, I am sinking oooo this swamp, glub o !
o
o
o
o
o
Which he does, & then it's
arranged through certain esoteringeered lores o phyjiqs that we shall
draw back from the scene of poor Qinz sinking (& firing his Gun!)
& sinking in as the thought sinks in that‑‑while he's contractually
like guaranteed to be able to kill Qert & thus posit him out of his
world, positimouahisworld‑‑he shall be trapped & humiliated
himself, poor guilt‑ridden bastard, to observe this swamp from high up.
The swamp from higher up:
clouds. Puzzled gouds.
The clouds DRAIN into THE FACE OF
QERT, smiling beneficently, kindly, sillily‑‑just the face to put
sinking Qinz off.
& Qinz sees it, yes he does: he
sees the face all right, on his little uoto‑oye which Qert hasn't got
but which 'nable Qinz, 'no 'natter what, to obtain a gosoye voo of
everything that transpire in the story of the sorta‑stor (& come to
think of it, does Qert know Qinz's got this thing? Does Qert even
know such a thing exists? I don'k thin't so...).
So Qinz feels great humiliation, as he
sink into the actual face of the artist, who hurts him all but
endlessly with his kindness & his smiles, & the elongate,
light‑blue distortiveness of that face, & the smoke puffs uph.
In case you were worried: the swamp
does die. Qert must die. Hell, Qert has agreed to
die‑‑again & again (agreed & died) again again‑‑& so he
dies, the swamp drying & becoming rather like the brown scum on the
surgfatch of cookied milch & wrapping itself tightly around the
skeleton of Qinz‑‑Oyea, the skeleton of Qinz wrapped up in Qert.
God, you see all those Good
Moves? Doublegood Moves‑‑& if you stayed tuned in (as many
people did stay tune edin to those early werks o Qurt), you could even
watch a laconic crew of workmem drudging the swump‑‑or what's left of
the swemp, which zembles wrust a small qoquum‑‑& lofting it up like
a bundle on one of their swampcrane, swompcraines, swemmvkraighngnes,
& plopping the dry little nigard down, & tearing it open,
coughing ot the sust, & revealing the skeleton of Qinz.
"What's that gun he's got?"
POSSESSION OF FRIENDS ALLOWED
Yea, Bottotic's stors started out as
small jokes, like those clear globes of fruit, crimson melons, &
bunches of twitzors you used to plant in the wet garden, just where the
verge of the boggy veer go bog‑‑where your mother says don't go.
The yellow lizards have DON'T KNOW written into them‑‑they display this
on their backs as they make tonguelings ackyou.
You yu-youyouyou-ou used to plant
those Prince Drupert Dops right where they would take possession of
friends, back when Possession of Friends was not only allowed at the
first queer singes of dawn, but were welcomed, positively hooted in by
the selfsame jolly‑russet son the son the sun that still burneth thine
hair uninto qurls. These are the fruits of lucination, prestoric
folds.
All very light. Only later came
that hopeless romantic period, which the botic kept ascribing to the
inspiration of the one May Beam‑‑a love known not to have ever
subsisted outside her selfdrawn cosmic strip‑‑a portion of either Qert
or his "friend" (also nonsubxixtents) Qinz, but in any event
unreal...and when I say unreal I mean two or three soft dreambursts
outer here is what I mean when I say real is just a dreamprod into here
her he h...and the boxes {God spare us from his boxes!
‑‑Ed. Boxes. ‑‑Ed. Boxes. ‑‑Zed. Boxezzedd oxes
ded ded ded}
& of course the snowstorms &
that qilly bip withe teef & the awful clackering, & the
fluorescent Phluorib poet or what tweveree whass, & of course,
after that, down a long expanse of time pseudo time in the forms of a
hall of perefect back, the dead period of the deadness of the storness
of the stors‑‑a time of qualities.
THE CUSTORMARY LOOPS
Again, once upon an hur Qert made a
little stor, apparently harmless‑‑a mere divertissement‑‑in which the
squeeging out of just one tear destroys the universe. This be
fore the stors came murder‑suicide device. The aim was to capture
Qinz within his own tears‑‑always the goal of lover friends, don't you
see‑‑& to have him face the choice of scruzing the rest of that
goddam tear out & be destroyed or of holding the cheer forever,
dangling, on that cheek. Qert bet Qinz would hold oubt. He
designed the stor as you would design a dream for a dream friend,
see. The tear would start time going in the customary loops, so
his paloops could cry forever.
Qert could hardly sleep that night,
his cheek pressed fresh against the rimey bluish sheets in the ICE
would heslep within (Qert had to sleep in an ice world, in his
custormary blue, so as not to create billions & billions of stors
from the frostings of his sleep), his breath forming solid, eerie‑white
statues of statues of white which were gently moved over‑‑by
servomechanisms, I hasten twad, & not by living, semisentient
technicians of any sort or kind‑‑to take their place on pedestals of
clear glass with a queer gloss as of drear dross in a tear's toss unto
merest moss, disc‑shaped pedestals, I say disc‑shaped pedestals, I say
disc, shaped pedestals‑I‑say‑I say.
& when he did sleep, this
excitable, because always a child outside his stors, Qert I say
disc‑shaped pedestals thought (& NOT‑DREAMT‑‑OK? OK?
OK? OK? OK?) of entering the stor in which his friend was
caught, in the form of a precious tear‑‑which you see you would‑must
understand. in the circuiages of time stor‑time stortime reduce that
which was "Qinz" more & more into the tear, which was, you see, the
imagistic fulcrum of the stor on a disc‑shaped pedestal‑‑where he, the
Qert‑shape in the center of the stor, a red shape, just visiting (ha ha
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!), might gently sigh & like touch that stor
& inadvertently (because your to your stors'll always superise you)
dissolve all his blood in his tear.
l his blood inis tear
l his blood inistear
lis bloodinistear
alisblodinistir
lbldinstir
lbltr
albr
alb
l
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This happen here & also here &
here & here. Remember, that goddam tear's been round the loop
o time for‑an‑ever MetaTime™.
It did their friendship, if you can
call it that, no good, this teary stor. It was dubbed "corny" by
critics, & the selfsame thought must've occurred to Qinz as well,
for of course he barely went round with this "self‑pitying, sappy,
droopy, drippy, dreemy, sentimental stoeur‑without‑a‑coeure," as he
later said he said, one time when he crushed out the tear out the tear
out out, which smoked & dissolved the entire universe
whereupon Qinz‑‑this is inevitable,
folks‑‑stands smoking & dripping at the same time right in front of
the soft, sleeping Qert (!) whose excited breaths (!!) as he realize
this is "real" come out now in the shape of red molten statues of
aliens (!!!) which melt the disk‑shaped pedestals repeated heretofore
& sits up astonied cries,
"Qinz!"
Qinz's fists loose just a little bit,
& he starts to pace. He is of course very nervous. He
is effecitually dead for the nonce, & mad as a demon at Qert.
Just think: Mad as a Demon at Qert. Just think:
That set off the cycle of stors known
as the Real or the True Murder Sories. & just to think‑‑it
all started with that goddam tear.
GUX
OK, first of the Real Murther Speries
or the True: Fairy musics in the background. An exceedingly light
heaven, this. The technician (some tubey swemm as‑may May Beam)
who worked & worked & worked & worked on him & in him
& on into him was him‑ or her‑ orself elongated to a degree that
Qert's softly objective mind considered ridiculous. Absurd, Qert
thought. It went against some principle. Or principles.
He‑‑no she, it was definitely a
she‑‑was pastel colored alzo. Now that's absurd. Looks
uttertwo frail, uttertwo frail, to be fixing him, to be stickering her
intensely‑lit (almost warsching grout that pastel‑‑haah) forearms‑‑for
the forearms was all you could see‑‑into his Leaden Grouted Gux.
Yet she did it with gusto, refluxx
Qert, & noticed that he was refluxxing with eerie calmy, aloof
& distant, for they had his mind fixed up to a flat disk which
rotated round & round. It was from this that it was from that
came forth from his that it was coming up the so‑called "fairy music"
sup‑for‑thup.
"I like your amnesia," May beam, dit
seem, din key & she moving in key, with the fairy music snow
revealed to be utterling frorth like sweam from the lips of Qert as he
rotated round & round. "You have 95% amnesia, Qert."
"Qert," Qert qert leadenly.
"That's right," she said, leaning
in‑‑which for this babe was one hell of a long lean in!‑‑to get a look
at something golden in his guts.
"Looking for some‑uh!‑thing?"
"I think we can get you your friend
'Qinz' back," beammay, laughing, "if you want him back!" her voice
muffoed from under the hood, speaking slowly, Qert rotating constantly,
falling deeper inspirals of love with that pale & breathing
trunk‑‑which he could not see breathing, and, having seen breathing,
could not but help but start turning the slender breathing over &
over in his mind, his mind roving over & over atat that so he
couldsndent helps zimzelphls‑‑& with each turn she got more &
more wonderful, & Qert did thought he thought, Verily, she is a
creature of the fairest heaven. Verily will she bring my memories
back‑‑including this familiar‑sounding friend I have not got, have not
got, have not got...
"Woops," she said, popping her head
back out. "Sound like your song is through, ol Qert."
Old, he thought, then smiled like an
old botic & possibly the author died before finishing this sentence.
Or this notice of the author;s dying.
Or this one.
Or this.
It's lioke predicting the end of the
world. Sooner or later, you'll be right. Now back to our
story.
NIGHTMARE HURT THE EYES
What is this shit? Now back to
our story. Start of new section. Start.
"Hey‑‑Qert," come Qinz's voice, &
Qert froze. The lovesmake was hurting. Make note: Smake
hurting here, he thought automatically. He felt his back muscles
hardening, as if with the cold smakegraze. You could tell it was
the first hit of blue smake for the era, but the muscles were actually
tightening in response to Qinz's weapon.
(My God! But he hadn't even I
mean Qert hadn't even thought to investiagte what kind of weapons they
had here in Hexx! & some of the universes had mean, nasty,
sad, overpowering weapons just to see an ik=mage of would make your
onions cry. He was losing control. He Was Losing Control.
There Was NO Control. NO CONtrol. CONTrol.
CONTRol. CONTROl. O!)
He could hear Qinz breathing, &
you had to admire the way Qinz somehow got a charge of hatred into even
his breath. What he did to Qert's name when he called it was a
nightmare‑‑an actual nightmare of a ghastly brilliant blue, like the
blue of some inconceivably poisonous dye, tinged with a red somewhere
caught between somewhere caught between blood & rust and.
Nightmare hurt the eyes, was thought as the bullet said.
He was sipping very hauchagoglot‑‑made
with plain water, pas de milq, known as "pas‑de‑milch hauchagoglot" in
these parts, heavy with rougue midstummer slakey smake, but he reserved
for future reverence the Question: What Parts Are We IN &
how‑did‑the‑scenechange howditchng..?quick?‑‑& making hideous faces
from the nightmare in the scene before the bullet hut (ruffle through
your scrips..?quick?), but no one in the immediate vicinity, which is
to say the immediate family, was noticing, possibly because the
illusion was his, pozzibly because he could feel the bullet hit.
Fine think, he things. I
cleverly escape to this place, only to have the bullet cleverlier
follow me & blast my back into clay wright hear...
Which it did. Qinz's vullet hits
the protective field of the back, & the protective f.o.t.b. tries
like hell to pull Qert out of the fix, but it's clearly a qlearly an
Interval Bullet‑‑Gog!‑‑& it hits right through to the very smuiff
of whusch Qert tis mage, & he splats.
I mean, his back‑thing splatters like
very wet, almost silty, virtually vet, clay clay clay clay & forms
a small volcano‑shape where the bullet rivets right in, & the
illusory Qert they had thought to have formed yet another life in the
Hills o' Hexx turns briefly into a stor‑‑into the composte ik=mage'd
stor he had posted immis hort, & the father in the scene goes
"Huup!?" & never expresses himself again.
The entire "family (if we may)" falls
into Qert's sudlyeqnergized ik=mage phials (your bullets'll do'll
tha'll't: they'll takeover everything a'that for a' that a't), mouths
wide open the whole time, & the small area around the small false
false‑Qert (doubly false by the maqorz zinopes of "fooling" Qinz or at
least his bullet X) BLOOWPS! into utter nothingness‑‑actually the warp
& woof of Intraverse "Space (if‑famlay)," but a‑lookin' pretty
"nonthin'" hyere as the original moqbody that Qinz shot croaks its
shock & dies.
shot croaks its shock & dies.
& I mean really dies. Qert
was apparently loaded with deaths, ik=mages & representationages of
death. This was quite a novelty, & must be a function of his
experimental ik=mage phile modality‑‑which the other botics‑‑certainly
Qinz, we believe‑‑didn't have. & judging from the grotesque
thorws of ik=magery (ick ik=magery!) that flowwowpong Qertick's deaph,
we won't be seeing very more of these newfanedaddled ik=mage file
inserts in the near intravuture no.
For Qert goes into some mightyumgous
throes! He throws for example‑out spewters of bloog, filleps o'
gutz, sillooz‑o'‑slime, grisly furrows o' smapeengfexted glyme.
He fill the goddam air with magnified ik=mages of What Death Means to
the Body when you're in a body.
& Qinz is in a body. He's in
a body, too‑‑a moqbody‑‑isn't he? So are his henchbots, Quuf & Qet,
& Quadiackinoawn & Qthee & Qo‑oQador, too & as
well‑‑are they not?
Someone is not.
Yes, but they (the ones I mentioned)
are‑‑not?
Yes they are.
So now what happens to thhem?
Well, the ultraik=mages of death throw
off their bodies, reactivate boggy memories o' what 'slike, etc.
The sort of memories that cannot be repretsed, hidden, flinched from,
run fum, nor in any way denied‑‑no, not even by habitants of the
ultrainter‑verx‑‑not even by botics...not so long as they're bodies,
heh.
So Qinz dies ha. Seeing the
ik=mage thrown out by Qert's death, Qinz's body creshes in its chups,
falls away, wrenches into convulsions & dies heh
& inside, at the minuscule sweet
diaphanous almost‑massless al‑most‑mass‑less controls, Qinz has time to
croak only "Wha‑?," because you see he is stuck inside, hah
as similarly in this mess do bodies of
Quff & Qumpany (even Qo‑oQador, yes).
Now I'll admit that somebody
unwrittenun thus sceune is not in a body. Someone is watching
us. Botics've always felt someone was waschgigng guss‑‑& they
are right, or were right, ere they die(d)haha. That someone
doesn't die.
But pritineer everyone else diezoribly.
Make note, there is no:one to shay,
ik=mage file ik=mage of death good doomsday device, released pon
dydying, & even the note‑‑containing as she does, mass‑‑dies.
Now there has to be someone in the
realm of existence to clean up this mesh. But not for a while.
AIR OF TOOT
or
PILATE CORRECTION A
or
INCLUSION IN THEIR FOOLRY
The two botics made an early attempt
to give up the game. Together they wandered some of the lesser
stors, feeling utterly safe there, feeling that they knew in their
hearts that they really knew the gods couldn't find them‑‑not without
what Qinz kept calling & calling "that chemicollusion" between them.
Qert was the wounded one, we must
remember; we must remember, in order to excuse the rather pangy dark
fucking goddam sonofabitch‑ing thought that he Qert thought when Qinz
kept saying that, such that the thought ("Your collusion, you mean.")
became as solid as the musical instruments they were walkin in in this
airless mewsicle or, more precisely, instrumental world that Qert had
hey in his private collection hey his primate connection ey his pilate
correction A, & Qert, shame dove his own suspicions & inhurt of
his friend, quietly puts the thought down amongst the myriad
instruments & sails into a rap foiling like the spatial layers of a
topogrophilupe.
Then Qinz turned with his usual neat
formularity, his neat blue tunic at the heighth of a style in a stor of
style in which the style height was perfectly high:
"These are the most exquisite musical
instruments I have ever seen‑‑so narrow & intricately coiled.
& their colors! They look like sweet, dark snakes or
kolucobbras gathered in, not to strike, but to let their own beauty
strike the colorless sun."
Upon hearing this, now Qert rolls his
eyes to the hidden camera which was talping the filmic pisions of his
mid, for future prilate miewing, & he draws a breath in that ragged
qurly wray we have gowen too lubve, & he scratches his curly blo